Cathy,
 

I write this to you, my friend, & I know Gary is with you as you read it. I can hear & feel your sorrow as you cried & wrote yours & Gary's story.

I can't know completely how you feel, because I have not been in your shoes. But, I know that this is horrible for you because I've seen you, heard you & do understand the frustration that never seems to end about "Why" the end of what you thought was a beginning.. the question never gets answered. What a thing to grasp. If you learn to wrap your head around that, share with us the "how".

The picture here & the only time I was ever able to see Gary on this bike is in this photo. & as you know it had been a while since I had seen you both before that. - Sometimes the circumstances surrounding an event or any given time here on earth are silent to us in this world, as you know.- I really don't know how to say all that I want to here.. So I'll keep it somewhat condensed. We will talk.

Firstly, as much as this is about you & about Gary, I am thankful that you did reach out & call after the service. We've talked about that - . You know what I mean & I don't need to explain here. I had missed you & Gary during that very "Grey" year.

How blessed you are to have had such a precious, precious heart - Gary's - in your life. What a Cutie Bug he is.. - I smile when I think of his smile. & the way he always called you Baby & worked so hard to make your home beautiful everywhere you looked & how he loves you so. & How blessed he was to have had you in his life, You were & are his "sparkle"! His smile was never quite so big as when he was home with you !

The way this happened ..... unbelievable. I'm so so so so sorry. ,,,

I don't know how you found this site. but your bravery & honesty & willingness to share is a testimony to your strength, your heart & Gary. - I know he moves you to speak out. . It is my hope that maybe this will be a venue for you to be a voice to others - a place for you to write & express & speak whatever you want to! & be heard. - Right now I close my eyes & focus - What might Gary want you to hear now? Maybe this.

- Cathy, - press on. You need to. There is a path that you are on although uncertain for now. There is a purpose & a truth that you will discover, Believe it. I believe you can do it - You are!! I'm so proud of you. Gary is missed by all & cherished forever.

I love you.

Kim